I know I have not posted in a while but right now I have to mention this before I forget.
Six Flags in Atlanta is under water. I know to majority it's "just an amusement park". Yes, that's true. It is but the fact that almost all the rollercoasters are gone shows that the flooding in Atlantla is far worse than anybody has imagined. Six Flags was already going bankrupt but were still hanging on. At my school, every year the physics class goes to Six Flags to "study" all the physics stuff about rides. What's really sad is that if and/or when the water goes away, Six Flags probably will not recover. I feel bad because it's like the whole Katrina thing but kind of happened without warning. This will sound mean but I don't feel all too bad for the people that stayed with their houses in the Katrina incident. They had warning and were told to evacuate but didn't.
Now in this situation, I think it rained too much and caused the flooding. I don't know, I haven't actually read about it. I didn't know it was this serious until I saw pictures on a sxephil video today. I have to see if my friend is okay though because she lives in Atlanta. She hasn't been online for a while because of school and work but now I think she's not on because of the flood. I really hope she's okay.
Anyway.
I haven't posted in a while so I can't really remember what I have mentioned and what I haven't. I got new glasses and a new permit to replace my stolen one. I also dyed my hair for the first time! I am now a mahagony, which I actually really like. I went to the doctor's last friday and found out I take my inhaler too much. I haven't used it in a long time but said that I used it once or twice every week. I meant to every two weeks but whatever. I have to take a new medication thing. I don't like it because if you don't twist the cap on and off the correct way, it messes everything up. But I also found out I have to get a flu shot D:
I had an audition today for piano. It's for our night concert and half day showcase. I knew my piece and my teachers did too but as soon as I began to play, I was so nervous that I forgot everything. I had a headache and my mind had just been somewhere else. When I brought it back, it was just a train wreck. I cried afterwards and I know that I probably won't get in to either.
OH AND THE HAUNTED HOUSE IS STARTING AGA
This is VERY exciting because I get to actually do something with my life for friday and/or saturday evenings 8D And I get to wear costumes and scare people. Yay~ I signed up for several days and planned on going more than what I signed up for but I found out that most of my "friends" only signed up for about three days. I don't understand, to be honest. We all made such a big deal about it when it ended last year and continued to make it a big deal for the rest of the school year but now they don't care anymore. It looks like I'll end up going by myself. I don't really mind but it's a lot easier to be in a room with someone you know and set up a scare tactic than with someone you don't know. Maybe Kat will want to go with me.
Speaking of Kat, I don't know if I've mentioned her or not on here. But I am hanging out with her again, mainly because we have Study Skills together. Well, actually I'm not really hanging out with her. It's more like talking, I guess. She has asked my mom if I could come over one night before the haunted house or something, which would be fine with me.
Oh. I also got my first debit card! That means I can buy stuff now online, hurrhurrhurr. Nah, I won't really buy anything. I have $25 on there, which is the starting fee. I have about forty bucks to put in there. The main reason why I got the card and savings account is because of the trip I am going on this coming summer. I am going to Germany with my childhood friend and her whole girl scouts troop thing. I really want to go but a huge part of me is scared of planes and going overseas in them. I use to love airplanes but the more stories I read about there being accidents involving planes, the less I want to ride in them. Ironically though, I considered joining the military to become a jet pilot. I'm such a nurr.
Talking about my debit card reminded me of a feud that started on facebook. I put that I got my first debit card and that I had to get a flu shot (and a physical, too). My cousin (who is 26 and is going to have her third child soon) thinks that I actually /want/ to get the shot. I hate needles. I don't want this shot but I have to take it because I have asthma and my doctor said I needed to. She apparently has /never/ had the flu or a flu shot and doesn't want the symptoms from one. Overall her statements are just not that smart. Then several other people get involved with this and now they're all arguing against my cousin. To be honest, she's my least favorite so I don't care xD I mean, she's nice but just the things she and her husband have done to a guy is just crazy.
I got a new game called "The Guild 2" and it's some expansion pack or whatever. I thought it would be lame since it was like, three bucks at Big Lots but it's actually really addicting. You start in the 1400's and can do different modes and such. The character creation could be better and so could the appearances for children. A baby looks the same as an eight year old, apparently. Other than that, it's quite fun. I need to make a dynasty that just causes hell for everyone, because I haven't done that yet.
Alright, that's about it. I'm actually going to go play The Guild 2. I really want the Venice version but I can't have it D: I was kind of hoping that it's have a city with water roads, lots of lights, color, and masquerade-ish stuff to it but apparently it's just the same at The Guild 2 with just some new added stuff to it. And apparently the expansion pack I have too is the same way. No fun :| Anywhos, bye.
- Sheepy
Six Flags in Atlanta is under water. I know to majority it's "just an amusement park". Yes, that's true. It is but the fact that almost all the rollercoasters are gone shows that the flooding in Atlantla is far worse than anybody has imagined. Six Flags was already going bankrupt but were still hanging on. At my school, every year the physics class goes to Six Flags to "study" all the physics stuff about rides. What's really sad is that if and/or when the water goes away, Six Flags probably will not recover. I feel bad because it's like the whole Katrina thing but kind of happened without warning. This will sound mean but I don't feel all too bad for the people that stayed with their houses in the Katrina incident. They had warning and were told to evacuate but didn't.
Now in this situation, I think it rained too much and caused the flooding. I don't know, I haven't actually read about it. I didn't know it was this serious until I saw pictures on a sxephil video today. I have to see if my friend is okay though because she lives in Atlanta. She hasn't been online for a while because of school and work but now I think she's not on because of the flood. I really hope she's okay.
Anyway.
I haven't posted in a while so I can't really remember what I have mentioned and what I haven't. I got new glasses and a new permit to replace my stolen one. I also dyed my hair for the first time! I am now a mahagony, which I actually really like. I went to the doctor's last friday and found out I take my inhaler too much. I haven't used it in a long time but said that I used it once or twice every week. I meant to every two weeks but whatever. I have to take a new medication thing. I don't like it because if you don't twist the cap on and off the correct way, it messes everything up. But I also found out I have to get a flu shot D:
I had an audition today for piano. It's for our night concert and half day showcase. I knew my piece and my teachers did too but as soon as I began to play, I was so nervous that I forgot everything. I had a headache and my mind had just been somewhere else. When I brought it back, it was just a train wreck. I cried afterwards and I know that I probably won't get in to either.
OH AND THE HAUNTED HOUSE IS STARTING AGA
This is VERY exciting because I get to actually do something with my life for friday and/or saturday evenings 8D And I get to wear costumes and scare people. Yay~ I signed up for several days and planned on going more than what I signed up for but I found out that most of my "friends" only signed up for about three days. I don't understand, to be honest. We all made such a big deal about it when it ended last year and continued to make it a big deal for the rest of the school year but now they don't care anymore. It looks like I'll end up going by myself. I don't really mind but it's a lot easier to be in a room with someone you know and set up a scare tactic than with someone you don't know. Maybe Kat will want to go with me.
Speaking of Kat, I don't know if I've mentioned her or not on here. But I am hanging out with her again, mainly because we have Study Skills together. Well, actually I'm not really hanging out with her. It's more like talking, I guess. She has asked my mom if I could come over one night before the haunted house or something, which would be fine with me.
Oh. I also got my first debit card! That means I can buy stuff now online, hurrhurrhurr. Nah, I won't really buy anything. I have $25 on there, which is the starting fee. I have about forty bucks to put in there. The main reason why I got the card and savings account is because of the trip I am going on this coming summer. I am going to Germany with my childhood friend and her whole girl scouts troop thing. I really want to go but a huge part of me is scared of planes and going overseas in them. I use to love airplanes but the more stories I read about there being accidents involving planes, the less I want to ride in them. Ironically though, I considered joining the military to become a jet pilot. I'm such a nurr.
Talking about my debit card reminded me of a feud that started on facebook. I put that I got my first debit card and that I had to get a flu shot (and a physical, too). My cousin (who is 26 and is going to have her third child soon) thinks that I actually /want/ to get the shot. I hate needles. I don't want this shot but I have to take it because I have asthma and my doctor said I needed to. She apparently has /never/ had the flu or a flu shot and doesn't want the symptoms from one. Overall her statements are just not that smart. Then several other people get involved with this and now they're all arguing against my cousin. To be honest, she's my least favorite so I don't care xD I mean, she's nice but just the things she and her husband have done to a guy is just crazy.
I got a new game called "The Guild 2" and it's some expansion pack or whatever. I thought it would be lame since it was like, three bucks at Big Lots but it's actually really addicting. You start in the 1400's and can do different modes and such. The character creation could be better and so could the appearances for children. A baby looks the same as an eight year old, apparently. Other than that, it's quite fun. I need to make a dynasty that just causes hell for everyone, because I haven't done that yet.
Alright, that's about it. I'm actually going to go play The Guild 2. I really want the Venice version but I can't have it D: I was kind of hoping that it's have a city with water roads, lots of lights, color, and masquerade-ish stuff to it but apparently it's just the same at The Guild 2 with just some new added stuff to it. And apparently the expansion pack I have too is the same way. No fun :| Anywhos, bye.
- Sheepy
- Location:My imagination.
- Mood:
discontent
The past two days I have been in school. So that means I am officially a junior, which has become a scary thought. Just this year and one more, then I'm done with high school. It's so weird though. You go to school majority of your life and now it's almost over. In a way, I'm going to kind of miss it because it was the only set plan I have every day.
In other suckish news, my purse has been stolen by elementary kids. I have not only $100 + in it, I have my permit and my camera. If I find the punk that took it, I'm going to go Chuck Norris on him. I can't believe it was on the first day of school. Well, yesterday I almost missed the bus, not because of me this time. It was my mom. She was taking her time and I was all ready to go (and was originally planning on walking to the bus stop like always but she stayed a few hours later). When I got there, I had my backpack, lunchbox, violin case, and my purse. I got on the bus and blah blah blah. When I got off the bus, I realized I left my purse but it was too late. I haven't seen it since.
My mom's mad, I'm mad because I am such a freakin' failure. I have to get a new permit and a new camera. All the money I saved up for my xbox 360 is now gone. My god I am so stupid.
I am keeping up with my homework and stuff. It's really hard to do (especially since I lost my purse) but I'm trying. The livingroom and kitchen is a complete mess due to me. I'm going to straighten things out over the weekend.
Alright, I'm reaching up on my time limit. I have set a little schedule for myself. I come home, do homework, prepare my lunch for tomorrow, take a shower, and then do whatever on the computer till 10:20. I know that seems weird but I keep aiming for 10:15, it just doesn't happen though. So yeah. Maybe by some chance some kid will give me back my purse.
In other suckish news, my purse has been stolen by elementary kids. I have not only $100 + in it, I have my permit and my camera. If I find the punk that took it, I'm going to go Chuck Norris on him. I can't believe it was on the first day of school. Well, yesterday I almost missed the bus, not because of me this time. It was my mom. She was taking her time and I was all ready to go (and was originally planning on walking to the bus stop like always but she stayed a few hours later). When I got there, I had my backpack, lunchbox, violin case, and my purse. I got on the bus and blah blah blah. When I got off the bus, I realized I left my purse but it was too late. I haven't seen it since.
My mom's mad, I'm mad because I am such a freakin' failure. I have to get a new permit and a new camera. All the money I saved up for my xbox 360 is now gone. My god I am so stupid.
I am keeping up with my homework and stuff. It's really hard to do (especially since I lost my purse) but I'm trying. The livingroom and kitchen is a complete mess due to me. I'm going to straighten things out over the weekend.
Alright, I'm reaching up on my time limit. I have set a little schedule for myself. I come home, do homework, prepare my lunch for tomorrow, take a shower, and then do whatever on the computer till 10:20. I know that seems weird but I keep aiming for 10:15, it just doesn't happen though. So yeah. Maybe by some chance some kid will give me back my purse.
- Location:My imagination.
- Mood:
angry - Music:Hedley - Bone Shatter.
I am running on about five or so hours of sleep. Why? Well, it all started with Sunday.
( Finally not long anymore )
( Finally not long anymore )
- Location:My imagination.
- Mood: angry
- Music:Justin Smith - Starre's Lullaby
I know there is at least one of you that reads my journal and is still in waiting for my sims 2 pics. I would first like to apologize (I've procrastinated) but I do have good news! I decided to keep this journal filled with the long and personal rants and have another one specifically for sims 2 pics and other stuff.
http://captain-zombiie.livejournal.com/
There is it, my new Livejournal.
Just an update on what I'm doing with sims 2, I am building a new neighborhood. It's going to be filled with lots that I have created and lots that I have downloaded. I am going to try as hard as I can to not use any maxis-made lots. It's going to be hard because I completely and utterly fail when it comes to building houses.
This also means I'm going to do another legacy and I will stick with this one, I promise. Unless something happens where I'm forced to not play it anymore. So yeah.
That is about it. Now, I'm going to download a few lots and then get working on the Sims 2 8D.
-Sheepy
- Location:My imagination.
- Mood:
sick - Music:Ella Fitzgerald - Into Each Life Some Rain Must Fall.
ASKLDJHASLDJK.
I hate school. I always have but even more-so now. I'll probably be even more mad when the power goes out (there's a terrible thunderstorm here). Anyways.
I got my class schedule today. However, it still says I'm in 10th grade. There's also another class on there that I don't know about. It's called Study Skills. If it's just like a study hall then I'm toast because I know I won't do anything in that class. Plus, I already requested to be put in an art class. They put me in Photography 2 so I asked for the art class again. Now I get this. This is all crap. I get B lunches on both days. Fantastic.
Wait, let me explain how my school works. It's an arts academy, so you audition to get in with a major. I am a piano major. The week schedule hasn't been consistent but last year it was ABABC. A days are your odd classes (1 3 5 7), B days are your even classes (2 4 6 8) and C days are all the classes. Last year we also started school at 7:45 AM and ended at 2:40 PM (which was ten minutes later from my freshman year). This year, however, school starts at 8:15 AM and ends at 3:15 PM. Excuse my language but what the fuck are they doing?! Last year I was getting home at 3:30 each day but now I won't even get home till 4! That's most of my time to do homework (and have some peace and quiet in the house) cut down. Now we're on elementary schedule. I don't want to end school at 3:15. That's too late. Oh and to top it all off, WE'RE STARTING SCHOOL THREE DAYS EARLIER.
This school year sucks and it hasn't even started yet.
I hate school. I always have but even more-so now. I'll probably be even more mad when the power goes out (there's a terrible thunderstorm here). Anyways.
I got my class schedule today. However, it still says I'm in 10th grade. There's also another class on there that I don't know about. It's called Study Skills. If it's just like a study hall then I'm toast because I know I won't do anything in that class. Plus, I already requested to be put in an art class. They put me in Photography 2 so I asked for the art class again. Now I get this. This is all crap. I get B lunches on both days. Fantastic.
Wait, let me explain how my school works. It's an arts academy, so you audition to get in with a major. I am a piano major. The week schedule hasn't been consistent but last year it was ABABC. A days are your odd classes (1 3 5 7), B days are your even classes (2 4 6 8) and C days are all the classes. Last year we also started school at 7:45 AM and ended at 2:40 PM (which was ten minutes later from my freshman year). This year, however, school starts at 8:15 AM and ends at 3:15 PM. Excuse my language but what the fuck are they doing?! Last year I was getting home at 3:30 each day but now I won't even get home till 4! That's most of my time to do homework (and have some peace and quiet in the house) cut down. Now we're on elementary schedule. I don't want to end school at 3:15. That's too late. Oh and to top it all off, WE'RE STARTING SCHOOL THREE DAYS EARLIER.
This school year sucks and it hasn't even started yet.
- Location:My imagination.
- Mood:
bitchy - Music:My Chemical Romance - Famous Last Words
Okay, so I was on Modthesims.info looking for furniture and houses and such for my sims. I had a particular person saved as a favorite creator because there was a lot that I really wanted. Unfortunately I don't remember who it was so I had to go through the people I had on the list. There was one that belonged to a 'Fashion Queens' group. I checked it out and then I saw the topic 'Prepare to be offended.' Being a curiousity cat I cliked the thread, then the link provided and read.
http://emodanger.co.cc/whatcanwedo.htm
I read the comments the people of the group had to say and they were appalled. Quite frankly, I'm not. I agree with the site almost entirely. Emo/scene has become the new overused and doesn't seem like it'd die out for a while. If you look up pictures on google and on photobucket, I'm guaranteed you'll find pics of some kid with black hair over his eyes, eyeliner, skinny jeans, and a band t-shirt. Personally I find majority of them posers. It's a stupid way to live, acting like the social outcast and like you hate the world. I've been there and back with this "culture". I'm sick of it.
Bracelets hide things, despite what comments say. I've seen it countless times with my friends. I've seen the scars and the marks. The wrists are a stupid place, in my opinion, and shouts "Hey, I was mad at my parents last night because they hate me!" When in reality the parents love them unconditionally ad the kid is just being stupid. Plus if you did happen to cut yourself for a serious problem, I think the thighs and other places that aren't visible are more understanding. You don't want to flaunt that you have scars becuse most people don't want anyone else to know they have a problem.
Okay, I continued reading comments and I have to say one in particular has me mad. I'm not going to say who it's by but I will post the comment:
"I apologize if anyone is offended, but i truly h a t e USA and how it's rebelling when a ssixteen-year old wears lipstick for the first time of her life. For Christ's sake, I dyed my hair black when I was twelve ... "
Okay first off, you're in Sweden. Second, you have no idea how wrong you are. The age for girls wearing lipstick and lipgloss gets younger and younger. Now-a-days it seems that girls are born and putting it on. Actually, I think girls wearing lipstick has ceased to exist. It's all about lipgloss. So shut your mouth.
Personally I think myspace and other things like that should be monitored by parents. I know this sounds stupid (with me being 16) but I'm glad my mom does, in some ways. Quite frankly I think if a parent doesn't at least every once in a while (not rarely) then there is something wrong with that parent. We are in a time where the "emo" fad kills thousands of teens because of some stupid thing that happened on myspace. Seriously. I hate reading articles where some girl was on myspace and got her heart broken so she either overdosed or cut her wrists in the bathtub and bled to death. I also hate reading about the parents that say "I don't understand why she did it. We gave her everything she wanted and we gave her complete freedom." And I believe that's the reason why she killed herself. No one checked her myspace page and saw that something serious was going on.
Man, this all has gotten me so mad that I don't even know what else to say. My stomach hurts, dangit. So yeah, that's about it. I'll probably go play Sims 2 (random note, simcredible site is down D: !) or something. I wanted to play America's Army 3 but it turns out it doesn't work on my computer after it downloaded! How awesome is that. Alright, I'm goin'.
Tata, LiveJournal.
- Location:My imagination.
- Mood: annoyed
- Music:My Chemical Romance - Ghost of You
(Note: I decided to remove all of this from my previous entry titled "The Dream" because it was too long.)
In other and more positive news. I AM FINALLY FINISHED WITH MY ONLINE COU
And to top this thing all off, I went to "5 Star Family Fun Park" yesterday with my youth group. That turned out to suck more than anything. We spent most of the time playing in the arcade (I schooled this boy Josh twice in guitar hero on hard but I had actually been playing that game the whole day yesterday). I texted my ex-boyfriend Dane to ask if he was coming or not and he said no because his cousin was visiting. I don't remember if I mentioned him or what happened the previous Sunday. Well, our group had nerf wars and then there was this girl named Krista. She was brought along by her friends Alex and Sonya (both who were cool up until the nerf wars). They were put on Dane's team and I wasn't (which I was okay with) but the entire time I saw Krista flirting with him. So did my friends Sam and Taylor. Of course I got jealous about it and had a tantrum at the end when it was painfully obvious. Everytime she walked by him she'd pet him on the head or caress (spellingfail) him. Then she took his phone and gave him her number and then stole his. Later that evening I joked around that she was flirting with him and he told me he was going to ask her out, despite the fact that they had nothing in common and that she was using him. I managed to convince him out of it and found out that neither of us never really got over each other. I asked my mom "What would your opinion be if me and Dane got back together?" She wasn't happy and I kinda wanted to prove her wrong about the situation. Now I regret it. I told Dane that I wanted to stay friends and WE BOTH AGREED TO IT.
Okay back to the story. I told him that his girlfriend was here (reffering to Krista) and he was like "Yeah I know, I'm texting you right now" only his had more chatspeak in it. I told him NO (caps included). A few minutes prior to that his best friend Andrew that was there was like "Is it true you and Dane got back together?" I told him no. He said "Oh, well that's what he said." And I was like "omgwtfbbq." Dane texted me back saying that I was being a jerk and didn't understand why I was being go mean. I flat out told him that we weren't dating and he denied that and that "I misunderstood" the situation. That night when we agreed to being friends, we were on the myspace IM (the one provided at the bottom of the page). He was talking to Krista, who was practically forcing him to ask her out. He didn't want to be mean and tell her that he didn't want to date her, so he made the mistake of leading her on and continuing to flirt with her. She said she wanted to do nasty things to him (he wouldn't tell me what exactly) and he jokingly stated that she should come to his house and do that stuff to him. And how do I know he's still not going to ask her out?
Back to story once more. He said he liked me a lot and that if I was going to let one girl change my mind I was stupid. He then accused me of calling him a cheater when we aren't even dating in the first place! He then said if my mom had anything to do with changing my mind then I was suppose to tell her "F**k you". What the hell? My mom was so right. Everyone was right. I am ashamed at myself for even thinking about going back to him. He is a loser and a jerk and I do deserve better than this. Note, this whole argument lasted about three hours long. He did this during mini golf, which made it ten times more not fun with Krista screaming like a Banshee when her ball didn't go where she wanted it to. And she kept being a jerk and kept insulting us. I eventually turned my phone on silent, which in return made me miss all calls from my mom. Sam and I left mini golf and went to go karts. I was the very first car (which I hate being, by the way) but lucky me... it stalled. Once they got it to go my kart honestly jumped out of the thing. If that wasn't scary enough, the entire time it rattled and skipped while I was turning (and they thought it was so intelligent to put two sharp turns right next to each other). I was so scared the entire time that my kart was going to flip over.
Dane and I came to an agreement after three hours. I eventually apologized to him so he'd leave me alone and he asked me that he wanted to be with me no matter what. I told him that I wanted to be friends for now with a possibility in the future for a relationship. He agreed to it, again, but honestly I'm not going to let that future happen. I am still mad at him (my left arm muscle was and is so sore that it was hard to keep texting him so I left a lot of things out that I wanted to say) and I still deserve better than that. I still can't even believe some of the things he sent to me though.
Sorry /endrant.
In other and more positive news. I AM FINALLY FINISHED WITH MY ONLINE COU
And to top this thing all off, I went to "5 Star Family Fun Park" yesterday with my youth group. That turned out to suck more than anything. We spent most of the time playing in the arcade (I schooled this boy Josh twice in guitar hero on hard but I had actually been playing that game the whole day yesterday). I texted my ex-boyfriend Dane to ask if he was coming or not and he said no because his cousin was visiting. I don't remember if I mentioned him or what happened the previous Sunday. Well, our group had nerf wars and then there was this girl named Krista. She was brought along by her friends Alex and Sonya (both who were cool up until the nerf wars). They were put on Dane's team and I wasn't (which I was okay with) but the entire time I saw Krista flirting with him. So did my friends Sam and Taylor. Of course I got jealous about it and had a tantrum at the end when it was painfully obvious. Everytime she walked by him she'd pet him on the head or caress (spellingfail) him. Then she took his phone and gave him her number and then stole his. Later that evening I joked around that she was flirting with him and he told me he was going to ask her out, despite the fact that they had nothing in common and that she was using him. I managed to convince him out of it and found out that neither of us never really got over each other. I asked my mom "What would your opinion be if me and Dane got back together?" She wasn't happy and I kinda wanted to prove her wrong about the situation. Now I regret it. I told Dane that I wanted to stay friends and WE BOTH AGREED TO IT.
Okay back to the story. I told him that his girlfriend was here (reffering to Krista) and he was like "Yeah I know, I'm texting you right now" only his had more chatspeak in it. I told him NO (caps included). A few minutes prior to that his best friend Andrew that was there was like "Is it true you and Dane got back together?" I told him no. He said "Oh, well that's what he said." And I was like "omgwtfbbq." Dane texted me back saying that I was being a jerk and didn't understand why I was being go mean. I flat out told him that we weren't dating and he denied that and that "I misunderstood" the situation. That night when we agreed to being friends, we were on the myspace IM (the one provided at the bottom of the page). He was talking to Krista, who was practically forcing him to ask her out. He didn't want to be mean and tell her that he didn't want to date her, so he made the mistake of leading her on and continuing to flirt with her. She said she wanted to do nasty things to him (he wouldn't tell me what exactly) and he jokingly stated that she should come to his house and do that stuff to him. And how do I know he's still not going to ask her out?
Back to story once more. He said he liked me a lot and that if I was going to let one girl change my mind I was stupid. He then accused me of calling him a cheater when we aren't even dating in the first place! He then said if my mom had anything to do with changing my mind then I was suppose to tell her "F**k you". What the hell? My mom was so right. Everyone was right. I am ashamed at myself for even thinking about going back to him. He is a loser and a jerk and I do deserve better than this. Note, this whole argument lasted about three hours long. He did this during mini golf, which made it ten times more not fun with Krista screaming like a Banshee when her ball didn't go where she wanted it to. And she kept being a jerk and kept insulting us. I eventually turned my phone on silent, which in return made me miss all calls from my mom. Sam and I left mini golf and went to go karts. I was the very first car (which I hate being, by the way) but lucky me... it stalled. Once they got it to go my kart honestly jumped out of the thing. If that wasn't scary enough, the entire time it rattled and skipped while I was turning (and they thought it was so intelligent to put two sharp turns right next to each other). I was so scared the entire time that my kart was going to flip over.
Dane and I came to an agreement after three hours. I eventually apologized to him so he'd leave me alone and he asked me that he wanted to be with me no matter what. I told him that I wanted to be friends for now with a possibility in the future for a relationship. He agreed to it, again, but honestly I'm not going to let that future happen. I am still mad at him (my left arm muscle was and is so sore that it was hard to keep texting him so I left a lot of things out that I wanted to say) and I still deserve better than that. I still can't even believe some of the things he sent to me though.
Sorry /endrant.
- Location:My imagination.
- Mood: angry
- Music:My Chemical Romance - Famous Last Words
It was a dream that began with a field trip. The class was composed of familiar and unfamiliar people with majority of the familiar people being ones that I don't get along with in real life. The rest of the unfamiliar people were people that I've seen in pictures or just made up. Anyways, we went to a place that was combined of three things. The first and most obvious standing before us was the Washington D.C. monument. To the left of tha was a mountain with a dam embedded in the side. Where we were was a pit like thing with stone steps on top of another dam. Right at the railing of the dam where we were was a small tower, resembling a light house, where I made frequent trips to. It is one of those buildings that is clearly much more massive on the inside than it looks on the outside.
They piled all of us into this theater dome thing where they were going to teach us something about stars (or space in general). I don't remember if we actually watched this movie or not. We did other stuff but the thing I remember the most was a box half full of plants in pots and a boy. Everyone was suppose to take one plant. I had failed to grab one so I returned to find the box half full. I got one that was sprouting (oh, note that these are tiny pots, almost like styrofoam cups) and I asked if I could have another. The guy in charge (more looking like a 17-18 camp counselor) said I could so I got one that didn't sprout yet. As I was leaving a boy comes in with his friend. The boy is bleeding at his hairline and the blood is dripping down to the right of his nose. Earlier everyone found out (when we first arrived) that his mother had died and a few tragic other things. Basically this boy had bad luck. He had slipped, fallen, and dropped his pot. I offered to give him one of mine but he ignored me and proceeded to the guy in charge.
We stayed there for maybe a day, at most, but it felt like forever. I practically stayed in that tower and made friends with a bunch of goth/punk looking kids that sat in this closet. The walls of the closet were red and the door had many window panes. The girl that I made most friends with was sitting in the back left corner with a keyboard. Her hair was black with some red streaks at the right side of her head. Her hair was in a ponytail and her bangs were cut straight across but very short to the point where they are almost nonexistant. I think she wore a dress, something that was black on one side and red on the other. It had long black sleeves and stopped mid-thigh. She had black stockings and black short high heeled boots. Next was a boy who dressed in black with chains, but that's all I remember of him. There was someone else that I knew in real life that was there, but I don't remember who.
I do remember a guy that was hitting on me and then out of nowhere my ex-friend Kat shows up, claiming that I liked her and spent the whole time trying to impress me. Things began to get really weird when they told everyone that we needed to leave because the world was going to flood. I was trying to convince the girl and others of the closet to leave with me but they refused. I didn't want to leave them but I didn't want to drown. Suddenly my roommate Ron appeared with his two kids and told me to pack whatever I could into a bag and then leave. I rushed into the closet and got the biggest bag I could find (which wasn't very big) and began looking around for stuff to shove into it. Suddenly everything in the closet became stuff that I either owned in real life or remember getting in the dream. I took two shirts, my ipod, my cellphone and charger, my inhaler, some books, and I ran upstairs to get my sketchbook. I went with Ron and his kids and we ran outside to get on the bus/shuttle/whatever that was taking us home. But as we get there, the bus leaves and we are stuck.
We got placed with another group of people, almost like another field trip, but with people that were older (probably junior in high school to late twenties). There were ladders we had to climb to get into this tunnel. We were all on this long, thing platform that was on this wall where the tunnel was. It was small so not everyone could fit. I was in front and was told to go in first. I began to when three or four people pushed me out before coming out themselves and told us that it was flooded that way. So we began to climb more ladders while people still tried to go through the tunnel.
The dream suddenly jumps to us being in this massive (and I mean massive) house that is connected to these other houses/stores/buildings. The house itself is mulitple stores but everything has this creepy halloween theme. It is abandoned except for myself, Ron, his kids and one other person that we never really noticed. We were at the top floor of this house and were rushing to find the way out. The top floor seems to take forever but eventually we come across an open room with a long set of stairs and a good view of what looked like the front door. I asked if we should go down there since we saw water starting to leak from underneath the door. We go down and stupidly open the door and there we see the earth below us completely underwater. It seemed like we were kind of in between the troposphere and the stratosphere. The water began to rise faster so we turned and began to go the other way. We jumped off another ledge and to a door that was stranded by itself on a ledge (like it was purposely built that way).
Suddenly, we were at a tunnel of a freeway-ish kind of place that was large enough to hold two submarines and still have enough width for at least three more lanes of cars. The submarine on the right had the longest line of people while the one on the left didn't. Ron wanted to stay in the line on the right but I said we needed to go to the one on the left if we wanted to survive. I went to the left line with his kids following me. By then I knew I wasn't going to survive, as much as I wanted to. You could see people piling into the submarine but I didn't seem to get any closer to getting in. The line began to seem longer than it once was. I looked to the right line to find that there wasn't one. I tried to wave down the guy to tell him that we needed in because we were children but he said that they were full (even though I somehow knew they weren't) and closed the hatch.
I began to panic massively. I could feel a large wave about to hit us and swoop all of us who weren't in the submarines away to our deaths. I then realized that I abandoned my dog, my home, and my mom. I felt beyond sick and began to cry. Then.... I woke up.
Holy crap.
This dream made me wake up tense and actually scared to wake up. But when I awoke I realized that I had to pee but I remembered majority of my dream and had to write it down. I was told that the more you write down your dreams the more you remember them. Well lately I can't remember anything and I want to change that. I was actually going to write this down on paper but I was/am half asleep and didn't think I'd be coordinated enough to do it.
They piled all of us into this theater dome thing where they were going to teach us something about stars (or space in general). I don't remember if we actually watched this movie or not. We did other stuff but the thing I remember the most was a box half full of plants in pots and a boy. Everyone was suppose to take one plant. I had failed to grab one so I returned to find the box half full. I got one that was sprouting (oh, note that these are tiny pots, almost like styrofoam cups) and I asked if I could have another. The guy in charge (more looking like a 17-18 camp counselor) said I could so I got one that didn't sprout yet. As I was leaving a boy comes in with his friend. The boy is bleeding at his hairline and the blood is dripping down to the right of his nose. Earlier everyone found out (when we first arrived) that his mother had died and a few tragic other things. Basically this boy had bad luck. He had slipped, fallen, and dropped his pot. I offered to give him one of mine but he ignored me and proceeded to the guy in charge.
We stayed there for maybe a day, at most, but it felt like forever. I practically stayed in that tower and made friends with a bunch of goth/punk looking kids that sat in this closet. The walls of the closet were red and the door had many window panes. The girl that I made most friends with was sitting in the back left corner with a keyboard. Her hair was black with some red streaks at the right side of her head. Her hair was in a ponytail and her bangs were cut straight across but very short to the point where they are almost nonexistant. I think she wore a dress, something that was black on one side and red on the other. It had long black sleeves and stopped mid-thigh. She had black stockings and black short high heeled boots. Next was a boy who dressed in black with chains, but that's all I remember of him. There was someone else that I knew in real life that was there, but I don't remember who.
I do remember a guy that was hitting on me and then out of nowhere my ex-friend Kat shows up, claiming that I liked her and spent the whole time trying to impress me. Things began to get really weird when they told everyone that we needed to leave because the world was going to flood. I was trying to convince the girl and others of the closet to leave with me but they refused. I didn't want to leave them but I didn't want to drown. Suddenly my roommate Ron appeared with his two kids and told me to pack whatever I could into a bag and then leave. I rushed into the closet and got the biggest bag I could find (which wasn't very big) and began looking around for stuff to shove into it. Suddenly everything in the closet became stuff that I either owned in real life or remember getting in the dream. I took two shirts, my ipod, my cellphone and charger, my inhaler, some books, and I ran upstairs to get my sketchbook. I went with Ron and his kids and we ran outside to get on the bus/shuttle/whatever that was taking us home. But as we get there, the bus leaves and we are stuck.
We got placed with another group of people, almost like another field trip, but with people that were older (probably junior in high school to late twenties). There were ladders we had to climb to get into this tunnel. We were all on this long, thing platform that was on this wall where the tunnel was. It was small so not everyone could fit. I was in front and was told to go in first. I began to when three or four people pushed me out before coming out themselves and told us that it was flooded that way. So we began to climb more ladders while people still tried to go through the tunnel.
The dream suddenly jumps to us being in this massive (and I mean massive) house that is connected to these other houses/stores/buildings. The house itself is mulitple stores but everything has this creepy halloween theme. It is abandoned except for myself, Ron, his kids and one other person that we never really noticed. We were at the top floor of this house and were rushing to find the way out. The top floor seems to take forever but eventually we come across an open room with a long set of stairs and a good view of what looked like the front door. I asked if we should go down there since we saw water starting to leak from underneath the door. We go down and stupidly open the door and there we see the earth below us completely underwater. It seemed like we were kind of in between the troposphere and the stratosphere. The water began to rise faster so we turned and began to go the other way. We jumped off another ledge and to a door that was stranded by itself on a ledge (like it was purposely built that way).
Suddenly, we were at a tunnel of a freeway-ish kind of place that was large enough to hold two submarines and still have enough width for at least three more lanes of cars. The submarine on the right had the longest line of people while the one on the left didn't. Ron wanted to stay in the line on the right but I said we needed to go to the one on the left if we wanted to survive. I went to the left line with his kids following me. By then I knew I wasn't going to survive, as much as I wanted to. You could see people piling into the submarine but I didn't seem to get any closer to getting in. The line began to seem longer than it once was. I looked to the right line to find that there wasn't one. I tried to wave down the guy to tell him that we needed in because we were children but he said that they were full (even though I somehow knew they weren't) and closed the hatch.
I began to panic massively. I could feel a large wave about to hit us and swoop all of us who weren't in the submarines away to our deaths. I then realized that I abandoned my dog, my home, and my mom. I felt beyond sick and began to cry. Then.... I woke up.
Holy crap.
This dream made me wake up tense and actually scared to wake up. But when I awoke I realized that I had to pee but I remembered majority of my dream and had to write it down. I was told that the more you write down your dreams the more you remember them. Well lately I can't remember anything and I want to change that. I was actually going to write this down on paper but I was/am half asleep and didn't think I'd be coordinated enough to do it.
- Location:My imagination.
- Mood: aggravated
- Music:My Chemical Romance - Famous Last Words
This is something that I cannot explain entirely well, since I don't fully understand it myself. But, I'm going to give it my best shot.
I believe that I have developed a strong fear of death. I hadn't really even thought about death itself until last year. I thought that death would never happen to me but I've come to realize that it's going to happen to me, and everyone. It's something you can never avoid and can happen at any time. What also concerns me is what happens after you die. (Sorry if you don't like religious discussions and are reading this, but it makes sense to the situation). I am considered a Christian but often times I find myself having this mental attitude of 'if I don't see it and/or experience it, it's not real' and I try to discourage myself of having that attitude but lately I find it really hard. I know faith is suppose to come into play but I have so many questions that'll probably never get answered.
Like, do our bodies just get burried into the ground and that be it, or is there really a heaven? I guess it's just kind of one of those things that I'll have to wait and see for myself, but I hate not being prepared for it. I am very wishy-washy and I don't like that either. I should have more faith than I do, I'm sure.
This whole fear of death has gotten me to look at life in a different way. It's becoming almost like this paranoia. Some days it won't even cross my mind but then I could look at something (I had done it before typing this entry with a soda can. Weird, I know.) and have this odd feeling. It's kind of tingly (sounds stupid I know but it's the best way to describe it) and I realize "Oh my god, it's amazing to be alive." But then comes the realization that one day I will die. I try to imagine what'd it be like when my favorite people, my friends, my family, and just about anything is dead and it scares me. I hate doing it but it's just something that I do not always on purpose.
This fear has made me scared to do a lot of things. Sometimes I hate playing video games that involve death and killing because I'm like "Wow, life is so precious and I just killed that man." yet the games are so addicting that that'd be a stupid reason to not play them. This fear has also given me a fear of pain (more physical than emotional), which is why I don't do sports or anything that could risk me getting hurt. I use to love ice skating (and was quite good at it) but now I'm so scared that I can barely move on ice. I find snow-boarding and jet skiing fascinating but I'd never try either of them.. because I'm too scared.
And I just found out John Hughes died. That man was amazing and created some of my favorite movies. Life is indeed very precious and it's a shame when someone does die.
Oddly, I relate this subject with the book The Outsiders. It is my favorite book of all time and yet I made the stupid decision of watching it last night. The plot is amazing, the character development is just outstanding and the emotional bond between all the characters is overwhelming. However, I hate reading it and watching it because I start to get in that mind set of death again. I don't know why I do it with this book or why I have this fascinating dislike towards it. But on a positive note, all the characters in the movie are drop dead sexy ;D
Last thing I'll rant about is music relating to death. Some bands/musicians write songs about death and how cool it is (as well as the stereotypical emo/scene people that is brain-washing the entire teenage culture) but I wonder if they really know that death is a serious and scary thing. I do admit, some songs are addicting but for the most part I hate hearing music like that (except My Chemical Romance, 'cause that's their thing and they have an appreciation for it).
Alright, I'm done. Maybe I'm just over-reacting, I dunno.
I believe that I have developed a strong fear of death. I hadn't really even thought about death itself until last year. I thought that death would never happen to me but I've come to realize that it's going to happen to me, and everyone. It's something you can never avoid and can happen at any time. What also concerns me is what happens after you die. (Sorry if you don't like religious discussions and are reading this, but it makes sense to the situation). I am considered a Christian but often times I find myself having this mental attitude of 'if I don't see it and/or experience it, it's not real' and I try to discourage myself of having that attitude but lately I find it really hard. I know faith is suppose to come into play but I have so many questions that'll probably never get answered.
Like, do our bodies just get burried into the ground and that be it, or is there really a heaven? I guess it's just kind of one of those things that I'll have to wait and see for myself, but I hate not being prepared for it. I am very wishy-washy and I don't like that either. I should have more faith than I do, I'm sure.
This whole fear of death has gotten me to look at life in a different way. It's becoming almost like this paranoia. Some days it won't even cross my mind but then I could look at something (I had done it before typing this entry with a soda can. Weird, I know.) and have this odd feeling. It's kind of tingly (sounds stupid I know but it's the best way to describe it) and I realize "Oh my god, it's amazing to be alive." But then comes the realization that one day I will die. I try to imagine what'd it be like when my favorite people, my friends, my family, and just about anything is dead and it scares me. I hate doing it but it's just something that I do not always on purpose.
This fear has made me scared to do a lot of things. Sometimes I hate playing video games that involve death and killing because I'm like "Wow, life is so precious and I just killed that man." yet the games are so addicting that that'd be a stupid reason to not play them. This fear has also given me a fear of pain (more physical than emotional), which is why I don't do sports or anything that could risk me getting hurt. I use to love ice skating (and was quite good at it) but now I'm so scared that I can barely move on ice. I find snow-boarding and jet skiing fascinating but I'd never try either of them.. because I'm too scared.
And I just found out John Hughes died. That man was amazing and created some of my favorite movies. Life is indeed very precious and it's a shame when someone does die.
Oddly, I relate this subject with the book The Outsiders. It is my favorite book of all time and yet I made the stupid decision of watching it last night. The plot is amazing, the character development is just outstanding and the emotional bond between all the characters is overwhelming. However, I hate reading it and watching it because I start to get in that mind set of death again. I don't know why I do it with this book or why I have this fascinating dislike towards it. But on a positive note, all the characters in the movie are drop dead sexy ;D
Last thing I'll rant about is music relating to death. Some bands/musicians write songs about death and how cool it is (as well as the stereotypical emo/scene people that is brain-washing the entire teenage culture) but I wonder if they really know that death is a serious and scary thing. I do admit, some songs are addicting but for the most part I hate hearing music like that (except My Chemical Romance, 'cause that's their thing and they have an appreciation for it).
Alright, I'm done. Maybe I'm just over-reacting, I dunno.
- Location:My imagination.
- Mood:
gloomy - Music:Let's Go Sunning
Okay, I am on my last unit of my online course, yay! But, every time I try to do it, something happens. The other day I went to go do my work when the site was down for maintainance. Today (technically yesterday) the internet got disconnected because of the cable guy (will explain soon) and would not reconnect for a while. Then I started to do my course when I went to walmart and Taco Bell. So that's been fun...
I live in a two-story house but everything is upstairs. Downstairs there are two unfinished rooms. Well, after four years we're deciding to turn one room into a game room. I have been helping with that and will help a lot more tomorrow. The cable guy came today to install the cable downstairs. It cut out for a while but came back, but not so much with the internet though. I have pictures and maybe I'll upload the progress of what's goin' on c:
Oh, today I got a new chair! The one I was using at my computer desk was all crappy and stuff but I got a new one that has wheels and spins 8D What's super cool is that I put it together all by myself >w> Yay~
-Fangirl moment-
HOLY FUDGE MUFFINS. RYAN ROSS AND JON WALKER LEFT PANIC! AT THE DISCO. It's the friggin' apocalypse. That's half of the band right there! Stupid Ryan and Jon. Now I can't even listen to their music without kind of being ashamed. That's sad, I know, but I really lost respect for the both of them, more so for Ryan than Jon. Ryan got demoted as my favorite because he got to cocky and Mr. Serious-all-the-time and Brendon quickly took his place c:
-/End fangirl moment-
Me and my best friend Perdita were talking just a few minutes ago. We have been talking for hours on MSN and the conversations we have are amusing. Anyways. I know officially want to get a puggle. She joined a street dog roleplaying site that I showed her and told me about a new character she created for it. It's a pomeranian/chihuahua mix. Personally I don't like either breed (I despise Chihuahuas) but the picture she showed me was cute. Perdita also said that she wanted that kind of dog if she ever got a small dog. I said that I wanted a Nova Scotia Duck Tolling Retriever (yes, it's a mouthful), an English Bulldog, and a Pug before I found out their eyes can pop out D: Then she told me about the puggle (pug and beagle, of which breeds I like, especially the beagle). Now I want one.
We also got on the subject of cities and stuff. We both use to the live in AZ (which is where we met) and the capital city Phoenix was the fifth largest city in the U.S. for a while. I dunno if it still is or not. But apparently they really cleaned up the downtown area, added some new restaurants and a park. I said that if they had a better amusement park then they'd be set. There is currently one amusement park in the entire state of AZ (I'm not 100% positive on this, but I'm pretty sure) and it's called Castles 'n Coasters. It's a joke, that's what it is. County Fair rides are safer than those there. There are two roller coasters, one big and one small. The big one, called 'Desert Storm', is ALWAYS down for repairs. You never see it up and running like it should. Personally I think they should tear the entire place down or at least the coaster. The other rides there are okay but there are like, fifty million free fall rides. I checked the site and there's two, but for a while there was like three or four. They are not that great but that's the only thrill anyone gets there.
I also said they should add a Six Flags or something there. I began to suggest Sea World when I realized that there'd be a lot of fishsticks. Those animals would fry out there, but it would be very very very popular, especially if you got wet. That's why the water parks are always so crowded. If there are more water attractions there, the people will be more content. It's just logical in my opinion but that's just my opinion. I think they just need to create more entertainment in general, actually. There's nothing to do there. It's all sports related stuff. Watching baseball is only so fun for a few games.
Yeah, that's about it. And for those of you waiting for my sims legacy (which is only one person but still~), I am working on it. I have the habit and tendency to start a legacy, get to the part where they have a baby and then decide to start over or just use cheats. But, I am trying to stick with the one I have currently and I will (hopefully) get it up soon.
- Location:Your mind.
- Mood: bored
- Music:Rule of Rose - A Love Suicide
I am so upset right now that I can barely think. These past two months have sucked. I know, it's my fault for failing the first semester of chemistry but doing this online course is getting worse and worse. I can barely sit through the videos. I just skip ahead to the information I need to write down so basically, I'm not learning. I can't stand the cheap graphics and the jokes are terrible. Seriously, no one talks like that anymore! They tried to make it for high schoolers but it's more for three year olds. This is worse than school itself and to me, that is saying a lot.
At my mom and our roommate's work, they are going through a forlough (I don't care how you spell it). That means they have a bunch of people off work for five weeks to save money so their company doesn't go down the drain. My mom was originally scheduled to be off all five weeks. Then it became two and then none. She and about three other people in their entire department are working. I think it's safe to say she's pissed. What makes her even more upset is the fact that I am at home and our roommate is forloughed as well. Everyday she comes home upset about something. She hates her job more and more each day she goes but she can't quit. There's not job that is within her level and has a decent pay.
I love my mom to death but I love it when I am the only person in the house. When my mom is home, naturally she'll want to talk. I am fine with that. But it's usually when I am doing something that can't be paused or stopped. I constantly have to leave my room because my mom is telling me something and I can't hear it. I do not blame my mom though since I pretty much do the same thing. One thing that I do that our roommate, Ron, doesn't is that I respond. I admit, I don't always listen to what my mom says because of some reason but I do give her responses. Ron on the other hand does not say anything. It pisses me off how she keeps calling his name, practically screaming it, and he still doesn't respond till she goes to his room. I don't care if he's playing a video game. I do too but I still hear my mom and I know he does too. Because of him virtually tuning her out all together, he is a main reason for making my mom upset. It even makes me upset.
I feel so alone. I don't talk to any of my friends, I can't. They are all doing stuff while I am at home doing nothing. I get mad, selfish, and jealous when I see people on facebook talking about how they loved spending time with their friends. I just want someone that I can talk to all the time. I want somebody. What's worse is that lately I have had a bad feeling, a feeling of me missing my ex-boyfriend and regretting leaving him. I think it's because he was always there to talk to and now I rarely speak to him. I can't tell him how I feel because I'm pretty sure it'll start another fight with him. I'm slowly attempting to become his friend again... but that's not enough.
The thing that has set me overboard was when I found out one of my best friends is no longer a virgin. I will not say her name, because I respect her and she may read this and if you do, dearest, I apologize. But, I found it shocking and dissappointing since it was something I never would have expected from her at our age. I am sure I am overreacting about this. I shouldn't concern myself with it but this has been the first time I've talked to her in about a month and I hear that. I dunno.
The only thing I've been looking forward to for the past two weeks is this show on the discovery channel called 'The Colony'. It's on right now and I have to say it's completely incredible and that I want to be in that world (a post-apocalyptic) more than in this one. Sad, isn't it?
At my mom and our roommate's work, they are going through a forlough (I don't care how you spell it). That means they have a bunch of people off work for five weeks to save money so their company doesn't go down the drain. My mom was originally scheduled to be off all five weeks. Then it became two and then none. She and about three other people in their entire department are working. I think it's safe to say she's pissed. What makes her even more upset is the fact that I am at home and our roommate is forloughed as well. Everyday she comes home upset about something. She hates her job more and more each day she goes but she can't quit. There's not job that is within her level and has a decent pay.
I love my mom to death but I love it when I am the only person in the house. When my mom is home, naturally she'll want to talk. I am fine with that. But it's usually when I am doing something that can't be paused or stopped. I constantly have to leave my room because my mom is telling me something and I can't hear it. I do not blame my mom though since I pretty much do the same thing. One thing that I do that our roommate, Ron, doesn't is that I respond. I admit, I don't always listen to what my mom says because of some reason but I do give her responses. Ron on the other hand does not say anything. It pisses me off how she keeps calling his name, practically screaming it, and he still doesn't respond till she goes to his room. I don't care if he's playing a video game. I do too but I still hear my mom and I know he does too. Because of him virtually tuning her out all together, he is a main reason for making my mom upset. It even makes me upset.
I feel so alone. I don't talk to any of my friends, I can't. They are all doing stuff while I am at home doing nothing. I get mad, selfish, and jealous when I see people on facebook talking about how they loved spending time with their friends. I just want someone that I can talk to all the time. I want somebody. What's worse is that lately I have had a bad feeling, a feeling of me missing my ex-boyfriend and regretting leaving him. I think it's because he was always there to talk to and now I rarely speak to him. I can't tell him how I feel because I'm pretty sure it'll start another fight with him. I'm slowly attempting to become his friend again... but that's not enough.
The thing that has set me overboard was when I found out one of my best friends is no longer a virgin. I will not say her name, because I respect her and she may read this and if you do, dearest, I apologize. But, I found it shocking and dissappointing since it was something I never would have expected from her at our age. I am sure I am overreacting about this. I shouldn't concern myself with it but this has been the first time I've talked to her in about a month and I hear that. I dunno.
The only thing I've been looking forward to for the past two weeks is this show on the discovery channel called 'The Colony'. It's on right now and I have to say it's completely incredible and that I want to be in that world (a post-apocalyptic) more than in this one. Sad, isn't it?
- Mood: angry
I am going to post an entry soon of my mission trip, which turned out to be more chaotic than not. Anyways...
I just took the first bit of my online summer school course. Whoever failed this needs to return to kindergarten, seriously. I took the pretest and got an 88 (I only missed three out of twenty-five). One question pissed me be off but it was just me over thinking it. I watched a video that lasted about thirty minutes long and I must say, cheap 80's graphics is hilarious. I did a worksheet as I watched the movie. Very easy. I really don't know why people made such a big deal about it. I mean, one of the questions is:
In a 100 L aquarium, you would most likely put:
A. a pregnant guppy.
B. Moby Dick.
C. the shark is Jaws.
Seriously? You can do better than that. That's a stupid question but made me LOL the first time I read it.
Switching topics to the Sims 2. I have actually started many legacies a few days before I left, but I did not enjoy any of them. I have started a new one that I enjoy but I'm not considering it a legacy. I have the ACR thing where chicks can makes babehs now so I may resort to that because THE MAXIS MADE DOODS ARE OOGLY. I may post it up later today, or maybe tomorrow. I'm not sure yet.
Well, that is all for now.
Have a good afternoon, Live Journal.
-Sheepy
- Location:My imagination.
- Mood:
amused - Music:Mad People See and Speak No Evil.
I am strongly disliking my life currently. Today my friend Sam called me and wanted to hang out since she was really bored. We got things arranged and they came to get me. Everyone went to the pool so it was just myself and her and the house, chilling and doing nothing. We were having fun looking at recipes and talking about careers when my mom called me. I found out that not only am I still a 10th grader, I have been kicked out of my school.
I failed the first semester of Chemistry. I told my mom and was determined to try harder. I did and passed the rest of my classes (barely, though). My counselor told me that I could re-take the class next year, so I thought things were okay. Today my mom receives a letter in the mail saying that I have to attend Summer School if I want to return to that school. Upon further examination, we found out that we missed the deadlines for the Summer School registration and the Online registration by a week. My mom is not happy, and neither am I. She apparently stated that I never told her that I had failed Chemistry, but I remember the conversation. I can't argue with her, because that's an unwanted guilt trip I do not want to take.
My youth group is going on a mission trip next week, which happens to be the same week Summer School is starting. They said we could register next week. Everyone was set to make me not go on the trip (I was even prepared for it despite the fact I really want to go) when we ran into two problems. Summer School costs $700 or so. That is money we do not have. The second problem is transportation. The school that Summer School is at is not ridiculously far away but just far away from my mom's work (which is close to where we live) that she can't get me there. Plus, the time I have to be there versus the time she has to be at work brings another conflict.
There is only one option I have, but everyone has serious doubts on me with it. It is an online program that is self-teaching, basically. There is no instructor, no one to ask for help. What many don't realize is that I understand the material, I just fail the tests. I have failed every single test given to me this year, regardless of subject. I am just a terrible test-taker (my roommate calls it 'Testing Anxiety'). I think I can do it. No, scratch that. I know I can do it. I am putting confidence into myself that I can pass this and get back into my school, because I really don't want to go to my neighborhood school. It's (sorry for the racist remark, but I live in the Bible Belt South) ghetto but it also happens to be the school that is having the Summer School. Joy.
I feel really helpless right now. The only thing I can do and did do was clean my room. I have been for the past few hours (which could've been done days ago but I procrastinated).
Good Night, LiveJournal.
-Sheepy
- Location:My imagination.
- Mood: gloomy
- Music:Protest the Hero - Sequoia Throne
Hello, Live Journal.
This is my first entry, which I planned to be cool and talk about myself, but due to lack of motivation.. it's not. Eventually I will but this is just going to be a quick get-to-know me type entry.
My name is Sheepy. I am currently in the process of finding a good nickname, but I'm having trouble. I am 16 and live on planet Pluto. Pluto is still a planet in my mind so hush.
I was a user on LJ a LONG time ago. It got to the point where I don't remember that user or anything. So, here is my new one. Tadah. Yeah, really, that's pretty much all I can say in this entry. So yeah... o_o
-Sheepy
This is my first entry, which I planned to be cool and talk about myself, but due to lack of motivation.. it's not. Eventually I will but this is just going to be a quick get-to-know me type entry.
My name is Sheepy. I am currently in the process of finding a good nickname, but I'm having trouble. I am 16 and live on planet Pluto. Pluto is still a planet in my mind so hush.
I was a user on LJ a LONG time ago. It got to the point where I don't remember that user or anything. So, here is my new one. Tadah. Yeah, really, that's pretty much all I can say in this entry. So yeah... o_o
-Sheepy
- Location:Your mind.
- Mood: sick
- Music:Protest the Hero - Sequioa Throne
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